yesyes.
i miss her already.
badly.
she just left the shop like 10mins ago.
im like a child misses her special blanket.
:(

she will be back on 5th jan 2008.
wont start new year with her.
but its okay.
im independant.
shall do so when shes back!
its not too late though.
when shes back.
still consider the 1st week of the year 2008.
:)

last nyte.
bfore sleep.
she hugged & kissed brother & myself.
oh my!
i want to hug her back.
but dont have the courage.
think im mad.
=X

woke up like 730am.
had breakfast with her n uncle thomas.
chatted for awhile.
i seriously cant wait to hear her nag at me again.
I MISS HER!
hello.
i really do.

mom.
you miss me too?
i know.
(:

MOM.
please have a safe trip.
send my regards to grandparents.
tell them i will visit them sooonn!
and enjoy yourself ya.
dont fall sick!
and shop for me.
hahaha.
:)

so today is the 1st official day i have to look after shop.
ALONE.
when mom's not around.
and wont be around.
i dont know how well i can cope.
but i think everything will be fine.

bfore the new year comes.
i would like to thank some people in my life.

GOD.
i want thank Him for not giving up on me.
and thank You so much for believing in me.
Thank You for Your faithfulness & grace.
Thank You for Your Love.
Thank You for giving me this life & everything i have.
I LOVE YOU! (:

MOM.
thank you for giving birth to me & brought me into this world.
we have been living together for 19years.
and still counting.
and you have tolerated my rubbish w/o complains.
i love you and always will.
thanks so much for being my friend when i have noone.
and thank you for all your blessings.
i felt so blessed & warmth when im with you.
youre my superwoman!
LOVES. (:

JOYCE & BENSON.
thanks for being my sister & brother!
my idiotic yet sweet little monsters.
16 & 15yrs of living with me.
yea.
im a monster but
i still love you both!
and thanks for having ups n downs with me.
but no matter wat.
you both are always in my heart!
(:

E376.
everyone in E376.
though i never go through 10months with all of you.
but i can feel & see the love for one another.
thanks for making me feel warmth & home.
thanks for all of your encouragements and being there for me!
thanks for being my friends.
for this 45days.
and still counting.
all of you have showered me with love & support.
thanks a million!
love always. (:

STEVEN.CINDY.JIABAO.RAIHANNA.MORRIS.JUNWEI.KRIST.
and those whom i never mentioned above.
too many names.
you all should know who you are la.
those considered me as friends.
thanks for tolerating my nonsense.
thanks for being there when i needed someone.
thanks for crying with me.
thanks for laughing with me.
sometimes we seldom meet up.
or even talk.
but youre always in my heart.
our friendship defintely dont stop here.
but it will grow stronger.
im so sorry if somehow i have neglected your needs here & there.
please forgive me.
and i will change & be a better friend.
so lets meet up sooon ya!
LOVES. (:

UNCLE THOMAS.
thanks for loving my mom n us.
thanks for being there for my mom.
you brighten up our days!
you always surprise us with ideas.
and plan outings.
take care always.
LOVES.
:)

MYSELF.
i always want thank myself.
for being sucha a good girl in 2007.
thanks for doing my best in my exams.
thanks for being obedient to mom.
thanks for doing goods.
thanks for loving others.
and thanks for tolerating my own nonsense.
and i will be a better person in 2008.
(:

u all must be thinking i missed out someone?
yes.

MY DAD.
:)
i miss him.
LOTS!!
till i think no words can describe how i feel.
i think in a year.
we like talk on the phone less than 10times?
and i havent see you for a long time.
do you miss me?
i pray you have good health n happy in 2008.
i pray you and your family all the best in year 2008.
im just a call away.
JUST CALL ME.
anything ok?
LOVES. :)

oh well.
guess i never leave anyone out already.
i will learn to appreciate more.
the more i learn.
the more i love.

saw a phrase from anthea's blog.
'LOVE does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking together in the same direction.'
yesterday.
had appreciation nyte at kathleen's place.
played the piano for awhile.

took bus.
and went to meet up with ma bitches.
LOL.
miss them lots!
had some fun.
chill out at mac till 545am.
took a cab.
and home sweet home.
=)

today.
slept till 130pm.
woke up.
best thing.
noone woke me up.
LOL.
but thank God i got put alarm.
if not im late for service.
had lunch wit mom.
and off i went to church.

it was AN AWESOME service today.
pastor was preaching about CHANGE.
in order to see growth n progress in life.
we have to CHANGE!
everything in life experience changes.
change because of wisdom.
and not because of circumstances.
LEAD THE CHANGE & dont let change lead you.
by then, its too late!
*if we refuse to change, we will lose out in life! =)
REPENT means go back to the highest level of thinking.
*theres no repentance, theres no change.
when theres no change, theres no growth.
*its no longer an option!

in order to change.
it begins with a DECISION.
no longer under consideration.
cast a judgement on it.
follow by DEDICATION.
be devoted and committed.
and lastly DISCIPLINE.
it is the bridge between thought to accomplishment.
it takes courage to change;to listen to the truth.
*open your heart, embrace it and have the courage to change.

5 reasons people dont change.
-PRIDE
-FEAR;dont stand there in paralyse. STEP OUT! =)
-REBELLION;stubborn,denial
-LAZINESS;too much is involve,cheapskate
-IGNORANCE;i did not know i need to change

*BE BOLD*

2 kinds of men dont change.
-FOOLS;wont change
-dead men;cant change

*WHEN CHANGE IS NECESSARY,NOT TO CHANGE IS DESTRUCTIVE.*

*only ability to lead the change will determine your success in life. =)

hmmm.
i've learnt alot from this message.
it is a wisdom to me.
=)
and i have many areas in my life that i need to change.
my attitude.
my lifestyle.
my work attitude.
my school sttitude.
my mindset.

im looking forward to 2008.
i want to start it good.
im happy that i ended my 2007 good.
even though i started it sucks.

but im glad that im still alive.
and i have a group of friends who are with me.
thank you!
LOVES.
=)

after service.
we went changi airport to fellowship.
some of us went to popeyes to get food.
some went foodcourt.
we had a good time.
took train home.
last train can!
thank GOD no need take cab.
=)

while i was walking back to shop.
my dumb idoit brother scared the hell out of me!
my heart nearly popped out & die!
i just finished talking on the fone.
and was walking towards the trafficlight.
then SUDDENLY.
really is out of sudden one ok.
stand behind me & SNATCHED my bag can!
oh my!
i screamed.
and i was REALLY SCARED.
thanks to him la!
then got this uncle waiting to cross the road.
saw the whole thing.
and laughed la!
then i was like scolding my brother.
and i was shivering.
he gave me a tight hug.
and calmed me down.
it was like wat the hell la.
i nearly kick his brother la!
LOL

but i had a good laugh after that.
bcos both of reaction quite funny.
after i screamed.
my brother actually jumped away from me.
LOL.
he was shocked by my scream.
and i was shocked by wad he did to me.
=)

hahhaa.
okays.
mom leaving for thailand tmr morning at 11am.
=)
mom n uncle thomas came back from golden mile not long after we reached shop.
uncle thomas drunk la!
and vomitted.
LOL.
mom was high.
and nag n nag.
talk n talk.
hahaha.
cant stand it!
=)

im gonna miss my mom n uncle thomas.
1week can!
so long.

my idiotic brother also very very funny!
he know that im blogging.
he sit beside me.
talking to me.
but i never reply.
LOL.
he like talking to himself.
and force me to listen to his jokes.
LOL.
he disturb la..dey!

okay la.
nothing much to say liao.
hahahha.
will update again.
=)
tata.
yesterday i went out with huiyi, anthea and wenting.
went shop around at bugis and plaza singapura.
it was fun!
we had some camwhoring session.
so nice!
hahahha.
hang out more ya.
LOVES.
=)

when i came back.
i was so tired.
n my body burnt la.
in pain.
=X

slept at i think abt 11plus.
so tired!
woke up 1030am.
helped mom open shop.
as mom was not around.
=)
ate alot today also!
then was chilling in shop.
online.
do some cleaning up.

okays.
will be going to kat's house.
for appreciation nyte.
meetin huiyi at bedok for dinner.
then will head down together.
wow!

wad shld i do tonyte?
i wonder.
LOL.

shall blog again.
tonyte.
=)
tata.
Ooh, no
Yeah, yeah

She's got green eyes and she's 5'5
Long brown hair all down her back
Cadilliac truck
So the hell what
What's so special about that
She use to model, she's done some acting
So she weighs a buck of 5
And I guess that she's alright if perfection is what you like

Ooh, ooh,
And I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh,
I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh,
You look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you use to look at me that way

Tell me what makes her so much better than me
(so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

And now you don't feel the same,
I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name,
You said nothing felt as good as when you gazed into my eyes,
Now you don't care I'm alive,
How did we let the fire die

Ooh, ooh,
And I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh,
I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh,
You look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you use to look at me that way

Oh what makes her so much better than me?
(what makes her so much better than me?)
What makes her just everything that I can never be?
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy?
Because I can remember when it was me

That made you smile (me)
That made you laugh
Even if it made you happier than you have ever been, oh me
That was your world (me)
Your perfect girl
Nothing about me has changed
That's why I'm here wondering

What makes her so much better than me
(so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

What makes her so much better than me
(So much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
(I can never be)
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was meeeeeeeeeee

When it was me
When it was me
When it was me
i went sentosa yesterday.
=)
met up with steven & terence at harbourfront MRT.
i was late.
i told him that im at outram.
but i was not.
i lied to him.
didnt know he mind it.
SORRY.

we took monorail to sentosa.
went to siloso beach.
we played volleyball at cafe del mar court.
just beside cafe del mar.
LOL.
then we went to play with the water.
hahahha.
thanks to terence that im wet.
and steven dont even want help me la.
THANKS AH!
but was fun.
then we decided to have a drink, lie down & tann.
so we went to cafe del mar.
ordered a bucket of carlsberg.
early in the morning can!
drink beer.
oh my.
LOL.
while tanning & drinking.
waiting for steven's friends to arrive.
so can play volleyball together.
it was fun la!
would like to go again.
again & again.

so happy to see him.
so long le can!
hmmm.
gave him the christmas pressie.
hope you like it.
=)

its been sucha long time since i strolled on the sand.
its been sucha long time since i got myself burnt!
LOL.
but im so loving it.
bcos i love tanning.

after sentosa.
we went to eat long john at vivo.
their service too slow & sucks.
LOL.
then headed home.

was chilling at shop for awhile.
and fell asleep till today.
LOL.
but didnt really sleep much.
cos body got burnt.
hard to lie down.

suppose to go out at night.
but last minute didnt go.
too tired.
but looking forward to new year party.
girlfriends.
meet up soon ya.
LOVES.
=)

mom went out early today.
uncle thomas reached shop at 9am.
mom, uncle thomas and uncle eric went to macritchie to jog & walk.
LOL.
i too lazy la.
if not i will go.
hahahha.
think uncle kenny & family also will be there.
=)

im so hungry now can.
later want go buy foood eat.
LOL.
yesterday also didnt eat much.
1carrot cake.
drinks.
and long john.
LOL.
woah!

will you let me stay by your side till you found her?
i know im not perfect.
but i just want to be there for you always.


this year christmas is special.
i was able to celebrate with mom and sister.
friends.
and my cell group members.
even though i missed out the christmas service drama.

christmas eve.
it was a blue monday.
as u can read from my previous entry.
bfore mac bfast.
i was okay.
but after came back from bfast.
I EXPLODED!
and twice.
it was maddness.
i cried non-stop.
i was so pissed at the 2fucking dirty old men.
and i simply hate people "throwing money on me"
like as though im a beggar.
i dont need it.
so what if u are drunk.
drunk means can create a din in other people's shop.
i was so angry that i dont even know how to express it out.
and i cried.
i was walkin up n down the shop.
dont know what im doing.
finding things here n there.
but no idea what im looking for.
mom remained quiet.
and so do the workers.
they knew that something was not right.
just not right that they dont wish to disturb me.
and let me do what i want.

i smsed almost everyone in my contact lists.
and i think im mad.
so desperately looking for someone to talk with.
and i really want to thank Lorraine,Aizhen & Kaili.
thanks so much for being there when i needed someone so badly.
and later Huiyi also called me.
i slept for awhile.
and i felt much better.

ma sister came.
and asked us to go bugis eat sushi.
her treat!
so nice can.
and we went to had ice cream too.
she brighten up my day too.

she said i was so silly to cry.
but maybe i have to much emotions in me that i dont know how to express.
end up i cried it all out.

i felt so much better.
and i was happy.
then all of us returned back to shop.
ma mom came to me and told me a bad new.

her fren went to bleach our clothes in the washing machine.
and my favourite green dress.
that i wore only thrice.
which i wanna wear on christmas day is gone.
got black black spots on it.
i cried again.
real bad.
it was a christmas gift from uncle thomas.
and its something i love badly.
ma mom and sister dont know how to console me.
and left me in the room to cry.
i heard one of the workers said that.
today its a very bad day for me.
indeed it started out so bad.
and i simply cldnt accept it.
i heard the aunt who made "beautiful black spots"
on my dress said.
"you sure or not 70dollars?"
"wat brand?"

HELLO!!
its esprit and its 69.90dollars.
i have the receipt, u want take a look at it.
she remained silent.

what's done is done.
and worse thing is.
i went back to esprit to see if theres any green dress left.
no more stock.
sigh.

even if u give me back to money to buy new one.
or u bought the identical dress for me.
or watever.
the feelings and love for this dress will never be the same again.
whenever i look at the pictures of me wearing the dress.
i felt a pinch in my heart.
=(

after i cried.
i fell asleep.
all the way till 9pm.
oh ya.
bfore that.
while i was sleeping.
i even dreamt of someone, i dont know.
steal all my clothes away from me.
and i cried.
=X
when i woke up.
i told my mom.
she was laughing and she said i was silly.
she even go round telling her workers that i had this dream.
oh man.
i felt so paiseh.
hahah.
after a sleep.
i felt better.
and mom said 11pm.
go to her friend's shop to celebrate christmas.
mom bought 2 red wine.
and we had gift exchange too.
we eat drink and be merry.

my dearest girlfriend.
duchess.
came and joined us.
and at about 1am.
we left and went to meet out with other friends.
we drink and have fun!
and we were merried.
LOL.
we chill till about 7am in the morning.
and we took cab home.

slept for awhile.
uncle thomas came.
uncle, mom and myself went rochor centre to eat wanton noodle.
its really nice!
and went ntuc to get some groceries.
and headed back to shop.
mom and myself cooked the bee hoon.
i was wrapping the gift.
and was helping mom to do the stamp thingy.

at 3pm.
junwei came.
helped him wrap his gift.
and off we went to Mike's place.
CHRISTMAS PARTY.
we had games.
carolling.
eating.
watching dvds.
and we had so much fun!
the mudpie is so nice!
=)
and we celebrated huiyi's birthday.
she was shocked.
but all were happy.

we left at abt 8pm.
and took 147 with huiyi & sam.
reached shop.
i was so tired.
so i fell asleep.
till abt 1am.
i woke up.
see everyone asleep.
and i went to sleep again.
till 6plus am.
i woke up.
and thats why im here blogging.
=)

might head down to sentosa later.
alryte.
thats all for now.

im looking forward to 28th.
got cg appreciation nyte.
and new year eve countdown.
=)









oh yea.
and this is the 3rd post of the day.
LOL.
im really mad.
wahlalalalalalalala.

uncle thomas woke up already.
dressed.
and he got guard duty from 12pm noon
till tmr noon.
yea.
shld be like that.
he knew that im mad.
asked me want go eat mac.
i said anything.
now waiting for mom go bathe.
and uncle thomas went to get cigarettes.

officially open shop liao.
the 2fellows got still 1more hour to go.
they massage 2hours.
better got money pay hor.
if not i will kill you!!!
hahhaha.
okays.
yea.
indeed i m mad.
after i m wit the previous entry.
i went to sleep.
at 5am.
was sleepin so soundly.
and even have a dream.
a long one.
but nice.
i somehow remembered the dream vividly.

7+am.
a stupid uncle with no class came knocking on the door.
i seriously hate him.
cos hes smelly n touchy.
but he got alot of money.
bcos he is a **** shark.
he keep tellin people that he is the boss.
and he owns ma mom shop.
u better beware.
when ma mom is gone.
u will sure kana scold from me.
kana scold from me very suay one.
hahahha.
i really hate to do it.
but i have to.
bcos u are too much.
ok.
i sidetracked.

anyway.
yea.
everyone sleepin so soundly.
and he came knocking on the door.
fine!
and he said got 2customers want to massage.
so i said.
cant they come later.
its still early.
and everyones asleep.
he insisted now.
so i said watever.
he somehow forced open the door n let the 2customers come in.
and ma mom was mad!
but she kept her cool.
she also want money n good luck to our shop.
but the funniest thing is.
he let the 2of them in.
and he went off.
and the 2customers also blur.
we also blur.
wth.
the 2customers are like dirty fellows la.
still ask ma mom go coffeeshop buy beers for them.
omg!

i cldnt take it anymore.
so i looked at ma mom and went in to ma room.
and i cant sleep already.
bcos i have to make sure they leave after massage.
i dont want anything funny to happen.
i m like that.

and i feel like killin 1 of the customer can!
my mom was speakin chinese n hokkien to him.
then he replied in thai.
"you no need speak chinese or hokkien.i know thai and i can speak thai fluently."
my mom was like wth.
ahh.nevermind.
then my mom asked what beer they want drink.
he cant replied what he want in thai.
end up speak hokkien.
and ma mom said ok, go buy for him.
then he said.
"you know what beer i want not? dont buy wrong."
i was like wth.

who is beer expert here.
hello.
mom drank everyday like you do.
you think you the only one know ah.
smoke in the room also.
which is not allowed.
its air conditioned room.
hello!

im really pissed.
i was right.
start the day not right.

i just want vent it here la.
i dont want scold people.

took 2 packets of cereal drink.
2 tiny cute france bread.
and 2piece of biscuits.

and here i am bloggin.
hahahahah.

my body clock has went haywired.
and im so pissed can.
but i cant scold.

sigh.
sometimes i really want to give up.
and go out find my own job.
but if i dont help mom.
she wont feel at ease when shes in thailand.

and i realised one thing.
i always have to act like a bad person in the shop.
all the ugly things i handled.
take from example.
want sack workers.
or workers who used our soap,detergent.
or eat our rice or groceries.
ma mom will ask me go tell the person.
to buy their own.
1 or 2week come our shop work.
no money.
nevermind can use ours.
but everyday use.
and boil water also dont want boil.
cup used also anyhow put.
dont want wash.
all i tell them.
or worst.
customers come like anyhow de.
also i scold them to get out of shop.
also me.
you see?
im not a bad person.
but i just have to be like one.
and of course.
got some workers are good one la.
just 1 or 2problematic de.
so 1 of them going back to thailand today.
suppose to be 28th.
with another one.
cos shes stingy.
and everyone talking abt her.
sigh.

but sometimes i realised.
shes doesnt appreciate me also.
when she angry.
she will scold me for nothing.
when im angry.
i show face,scold her.
she dulan with me.
what i tell her she never listens.
when things go haywired.
then she regret and listen to me.
isnt it too late?

guess right now.
her bf and money is more important to her.
she spent more time with bf than in shop.
then for what open shop.
close la.
go out work for people earn more and better.
no worries.

anyway.
im just complaining.
i still love ma mom!
i just have to say it.
too much in me le.

if i dont burst here.
and if i burst out there.
all things will turn ugly.

sigh.

celebrate christmas alone is not a bad idea also.
i have never done it bfore.
its a new experience mah.
right.

hmmmmm.
wads happening.
wads going on.
im spinning round.
im losing grip.
im in a bad condition.
and with so many symptoms.
but no matter what.
you wont see me cry..

its monday.
and its christmas eve.
feel so blue.
i start my day not right.
and i dont know why.

later got service.
745pm.
needa go.
but i dont know if mom's going not.
bcos ma sister decided not to go.
and sister coming to find us.
and have dinner together.
oh well..

and i dont know whats the plan for tonyte.
maybe im not so looking forward to christmas afterall.
in fact.
theres nothing for me to look foward to.
be it a normal day.
or christmas.
or any other day.
its just the same..

i fell hard.
so hard that i cant feel myself anymore.
im not runnin away.
i give up.

out of my sight.
out of my mind.

theres nothing in the world for me to look forward to...
8 more days to a brand new year.
im having mixed feelings.
i dont know if i shld be excited bout it.
or sad bout it.
i just dont know how i feel anymore.
the pain sets it and i dont cry.
i only feel gravity and i wonder why.

guess im not ready.
and i dont know why.
maybe im too comfortable with where i am now.
maybe im afraid to face a new year.
with new obstacles to overcome.
and dont know what will happen.
guess im just not ready..

though i have so much things to do & say.
suddenly i just felt that i have nothing to look forward to.
maybe im just used to having someone by my side to share things that i have.

i should have gotten over it a long time ago.
but a small part of me is still hoping and holding on.
why is that so.
something that i just cant figure out myself anymore.

i read ma fren's blog.
she quoted a passage from another blog.
but it was from a book written by Chad Eastman
'The truth about Guys'
it was quite true.

"more than 96% of the high school relationships dont last, including the ones that were 'absolutely going to be together forever.'...The truth is you will probably date several guys/girls before you get married,so treat each relationship that comes along as a learning experience & of course, to learn from each relationship.
(if you can get a dozen relationships in a year & yet not have a clue what have you gained from each experience, you can be 100% sure that you are scaring the right person away.)Dont look at every relationship as if you are going to wind up getting married. Most importantly, dont get too involved into talking about the future. Deal with the facts before you let your feelings take over. Go into a relationship to have fun and make a good friend. Nothing more. If, by some extremely small percentage,things should progress into marriage, they will. Dont rush just because you give yourself an excuse that you are young and cant think rationally.

We are still growing up. And we do not have the slightest fucking clue as to what type of person we are going to marry because we have hardly begun to discover what type of person we are going to ultimately mature into. The point of teenager-datings is not to find our "soul mate"(or maybe it is, i dont know);but it is to test out the complimentary as well as unfavorable characteristics in people that will assist us in eventually finding "the one,"

i think.
in another words,it means.
just enjoy your time with your partner.
dont think too much.
and put extra burden in your life.
when it is the right time and is "the one",i dont know how.
and somehow you will know it.
then,eventually.
they will be the one for you for the rest of the life.

ahhh.
(=

okays.
im back!
i blog halfway.
uncle thomas came.
and.
mom woke up.
asked me go eat.
so we went to somewhere to eat.
a market.
to eat kway chap.
nice!
=)
then walked to rochor centre NTUC.
buy groceries.
bought fishball noodle for ma brother.
and headed back to shop.

and here i am blogging again.
but guess.
i have forgotten what i wanna blog previously.
shall end here for now.
see ya.
=)













last nyte.
not feeling well.
so slept early.
but dono why.
this morning 645am wake up le.
so i used the com.
surf net.
do nothing.
till abt 9am.
slowly help mom open shop.
then at abt 10am.
went to supermarket with aunt wan.
buy groceries.
and get my contact lens.

came back eat.
then help mom look after shop.
mom went out to eat with her bf.
LOL.
slack.
till abt 1plus.
mom came back.
online.
help her do laundry.
and cook.
LOL.

yea.think tats abt all so far.
oh ya.
ytd suppose to go help out at children church.
but i din go.
not feeling well.
fever.
flu.
headache.
vomitted also.

later evening also cant go kathleen's house to help.
cos mom wont be ard.
need her look after shop.
these few days so busy can.
like my own shop like tat.
many things to do.
cos mom will be going away soonn.
1week can.
1day never see will die le.
sure miss her like crazy.
but wat to do.

mom going shopping in thailand.
so i can get new lingerie..
LOL
hmmm.
told mom i wan sexy n hot one.
hahahha.
=)
she knows me well.

im quite tired to run after la.
this time round.
i think im giving up.
come what may.

sometimes being a good person can be quite tiring also.
cos i have to suppress my anger & emotions.
LOL.
think im mad.
hahha.
yea.
indeed i am.
hahaha.

ok.
shall blog more later.
nothing much to say le.
see ya!
cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
about the things caught in my mind
and as the day is dawning my plane flew away
with all the things caught in my mind

and I wanna be there when you're coming down
and I wanna be there when you hit the ground

so don't go away
say what you say
but say that you'll stay
forever and a day in the time of my life
'cause i need more time
yes, i need more time, just to make things right

damn my situation and the games i have to play
with all the things caught in my mind
damn my education i can't find the words to say
about the things caught in my mind

and I wanna be there when you're coming down
and I wanna be there when you hit the ground

so don't go away
say what you say
but say that you'll stay
forever and a day in the time of my life
'cause i need more time
yes, i need more time, just to make things right

me and you what's going on?
all we seem to know is how to show the feelings that are wrong

so don't go away
say what you say
but say that you'll stay
forever and a day in the time of my life
'cause i need more time
yes, i need more time, just to make things right

and don't go away
say what you say
but say that you'll stay
forever and a day in the time of my life
'cause i need more time
yes, i need more time, just to make things right (x3)

so don't go away
my eyes hurt badly today.
thanks to the contact lens.
getting a new pair later.
=)

thank GOD for HIS healing.
i felt much better now.
not so painful le.
=)

i din eat much today.
tired.
and fasting.
and never consider fast la.
cos i still got eat abit.
=X

and guess what?
i read the bible today.
and i prayed.
i read JOHN chapter 1 to 5.
later bfore i sleep.
will continue read 5more chapters.
and will pray.
=)

not tat i do all this to act holy.
but i just want to drill in GOD's words.
and pray.
i want think like GOD.
and positively.
=)

oh ya.
my bro is back!
reached home ard 12plus can.
LOL.
never call also.
thought he lost in the outerspace le.
i was sleepin la.
he surprised me.
LOL.
bought scarf for me.
for my mom & sister also.
thanks!
=)

he took alot of pictures from cambodia.
so touching can.
made me thought of china.
which i went last year.
when i was in nursing course.
=)

think tmr will go bugis walk walk awhile.
get red nail polish.
and a red top.
red top for serving in children's church on thurs.
and buy christmas pressies.
=)

hahha.
so excited!
cant wait to serve.
but not watchin movie le.
still will have lunch together.
=)

okok.
think i have nth mucha say le.
shall end here.
=)

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall



yeay! finally.
im done with my blog.
=)

just now my cbox got some prob.
so was trying to figure out.
quite stupid.
already got say width max 450 le.
mine too big.
also ignore and dont want change.
until i open eyes BIG BIG to see then saw.
LOL.

mom and all.
took turns to ask me.
why i never sleep.
uncle thomas said i superwoman.
LOL.
not i dont want sleep.
is want do finish ma stuff till nice nice then can sleep ma.
LOL.

these are the some words i found from different blogskins.
SIMPLY LOVES LIL QUEENS BLOGSKINS.
rocks on!
=)

you would have held on tighter
fought a little harder
been a little smarter and
now you gonna miss my love.
my hugs and my kisses
you know you're gonna miss it
the problem here is you ; i'm moving on.

the littlest things that take me there;
i know it sounds lame but its so true;
i know its not right, but it seems unfair;
that the things are reminding me of you;
sometimes i wish we could just pretend;
even if for only one weekend;
so come on, tell me is this the end?
no one in the world, could ever replace you.

give me back my heart;
you broke it and now you dont deserve it.

she's a lil girl, living in her perfect world.
until th bad guy came, and tore it apart.

keep holding on'cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through..

the pieces of my heart;
i'll be missing you.

you told me you loved me, why did you leave me, all alone?
now you tell me you need me,im already gone.
cut it out, because..im everything without you.

flames to dust, lovers to friends
why do all good things come to an end?
what will become of me?
i don't like reality.
traveling i only stop at exits
wondering if i'll stayyoung and restless
living this way i stress less
i want to pull away when the dream dies
the pain sets it and i don't cryi only feel gravity and i wonder why

you and me, we are picture perfect.
you and me, we are LOVE.
me + you = love.

to hear u stumble when u speak
or see u walk with two left feet.
that's when i love you, i love you endlessly.
cause here's my promise made tonight,you can count on me 4 life.
cause that's when I love u.
when nothing u do can change my mind.

tada.
=)
hahha.
yea yea.
i changed my blogskin.
im so in love with MGK & LIL QUEENS blogskins.

i will slowly put up and change blogskins.
this is one of my fav.
and all those blogskins that i will put up are all my favourites.
LOL.

yes.
earlier post.
i said i want go sleep.
but i din.
was checking mails & stuffs.
exploring friendster.
open an account in myspace.

and yes.
find nice nice blogskins.
hahahha.

im mad & nonsensical now.

some words that i came across while choosing the blogskins.

to hear u stumble when u speakor see u walk with two left feet.that's when i love you, i love you endlessly.
cause here's my promise made tonight,you can count on me 4 life.cause that's when I love u.when nothing u do can change my mind.

=)
nice.
i received my first christmas present le.
thanks to my beloved sister.
she got me a BLUE CRYSTAL ANGEL phone strap.
she said im an angel to them.
hee.
love her so muchh!
(:

i reached home abt 1hr ago.
mom & her friends.
last minute want go thai disco.
i went.
but i never drink.
help to look after them.
my sister 1st one drunk.
sent her home.
then went back to meet up with them.
went to geylang 15 for supper.
had TEOCHEW PORRIDGE.
so full can!
i ate 2bowls of porridge.
hahha.

but im fasting starting from today till friday.
(:

my bro coming back today.
but dono what time.
really cant wait to see him!

i want breakthrough.

im going to catch some sleep now.
mom's bf, uncle thomas off today.
so dono what is he up to.
LOL.
he said macritchie reservoir today.
*cross finger*
we too tired le.
hahhaa.
got any other plan?
hmmm.
think we wait for brother to reach.
then we as in mom, uncle, bro, sis & me can have dinner together.
hahhaa.
its been sucha long time.
or maybe another round of bowling today?
we shall see.

okok.
end here.
ta..

its a brand new day.
monday morning.
(=

last nyte.
after close shop.
abt 12plus.
went to mustafa with mom & her friends.
we bought groceries.
and i bought a new pen & notebook.

2plus am reached shop.
stayed up the whole nyte.
copied all the notes into the new notebook.
and i spent time with GOD.
i prayed.
listening to worship songs.

and i m blogging now.
LOL.

tmr my bro coming back le.
so happy!
cant wait to hug him.
=)

and think charles is leaving tmr.
might head down to airport to have dinner & send him off.
i deleted the sms by accident.
so will ask mike again.
=X

christmas is near.
the season of LOVE.
and giving.
=)

hmmm.
think today till wed.
i will be a good girl stay in shop and help mom.
and spend time with GOD.
=)
tues to fri.
im fasting.
veggie fast.
no club for me.
cut down number of sticks.
less napping.
less online.
more pray & read bible.

thurs.
morning till afternoon.
will go jurong church.
help out in children church christmas service.
so nervous & excited!
=)
and im serving with aizhen & kathleen.
might catch a movie with kathleen after that.
with our fav, POPCORNS!
but fasting how to eat?
hmmm.
got organic popcorns?
=X
hahaha.

fri.
meeting some of my cg members go kathleen's house wrap gifts.
PRESENTS!
i want i want.
hahaha.

so looking forward to christmas service & party.
=)

alryte alryte.
shall end here.
will update pictures later.
tata.



i have so many things to update today.
i had a long day today.
hahha.
but FRUITFUL!
=)

i slept early last nyte.
too tired.
12plus slept le.
woke up early too!
10am.

last minute.
mom and her bf planned to go east coast park.
uncle eric came along too.
we ride bicycle.
from mac to jetty.
took some pictures.
went to a hawker to eat.
cycle back to the bicycle shop.
thought of blading.
oh well.
hahha.
dono how.
scared fall down.
so yea.
will someone kindly teach me how to blade one day?
must be patient ok.
hee.
=)

then.
we decided to do some bowling.
and yes.
i was fun!
alot of funny things happened also.
but of cos.
i wont say la.
cos
it will be tooo embarassed.
i dont want my mom to paiseh
LOL.

and i want thank GOD for the weather.
we took a cab home at abt 3plus pm.
reached shop.
but after we reached shop then rain la.
we never caught in the rain.
so i wan thank GOD for that.

it was raining.
so i used an umbrella of cos.
took train go church.
but thank GOD only rain at bugis.
but other place never.
=)

i was quite tired.
nearly dozed off in service.
but i never.
was quite touched by GOD's words.
we prayed and worshipped GOD alot today in service.
felt GOD's presence so strongly.
=)

after service.
had children's chuch meeting.
next thurs.
will go help out in their children's christmas service.
i believe its going to be fun!
=)

after that.
had dinner with lorraine and helpers.
was talking to lorraine.
but i felt better now.
thanks!

so looking forward for the christmas service.
and christmas party at mike's house.

its the season of love.
and its the time of giving presents and receive presents.
its the time to have fun and relax!
LOL.
=)

lets keep praying for our family and friends.
lets keep praying for our church.
and also pray for ourselves.

Eph 3 : 20
now to HIM who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think,
according to the power that works in us.

lets keep believing.
and never give up!

AMEN.
=)



here i am blogging.
also nothyn much to say.
im simply tired.
not enough S L E E P.

i din go anywhere last nyte.
drama maranthon.
LOL.
disc after disc.
its nice la!
more to come..
(:

slept this mornin.
10plus.
so cold can!
took a hot bath.
then ZzZzz.
LOL.

woke up abt 7pm.
sis came but went back.
never get to talk.

mom cooked for me.
i ate 1big bowl of rice.
so hungry.
=X

im in shop.
so was hanging ard in shop.
cant sit still.
cant stand still.
dono want do what also.

i trying to keep myself awake.
but im just toooo tired.

today business not bad.
got customers.
(:

many people asked me out.
but tonyte.
im T I R E D.
sorry people.
meet up sooonn.
(:

im feeling a OK.
dont worry abt me.
(:

i will keep smiling no matter what.




im so fallen in love with thai drama these days.
i can give up my sleep for the drama.
watch dvds till morning then sleep.
LOL.

mom said that im so like her.
LOL.
when she was young.
she did wad i m doing now.
(:

alryte.
i have nothing to blog la.

ytd.
sister came to mom shop.
we had dinner tgt.
had a great time la.
she said she might go for the christmas service with mom.
yeah.
im happy.
(:

bro!
i miss you badly.
yes.
hes still in cambodia.
will be back on 18th.
5more days to go.

i was out last nyte too.
met up cousin marcus & frens.
not very fun la.
maybe cos im tired.
LOL.
but so happy to see you all.
(:

never get to talk to you for 2days.
misses.
(:

okok.
now want continue watch thai drama le.
and im having my cereal.
LOL.

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