Y im sick. @ 4:48 AM
wads happening.
wads going on.
im spinning round.
im losing grip.
im in a bad condition.
and with so many symptoms.
but no matter what.
you wont see me cry..
its monday.
and its christmas eve.
feel so blue.
i start my day not right.
and i dont know why.
later got service.
745pm.
needa go.
but i dont know if mom's going not.
bcos ma sister decided not to go.
and sister coming to find us.
and have dinner together.
oh well..
and i dont know whats the plan for tonyte.
maybe im not so looking forward to christmas afterall.
in fact.
theres nothing for me to look foward to.
be it a normal day.
or christmas.
or any other day.
its just the same..
i fell hard.
so hard that i cant feel myself anymore.
im not runnin away.
i give up.
out of my sight.
out of my mind.
theres nothing in the world for me to look forward to...
