Y this entry is gonna be long.the title is cherish. @ 4:48 AM
hahhaha.
i had a good laugh today.
thanks for calling.
caught me by surprise.
=)
i have nothing much to say today.
my life quite sad.
but im not gonna have pity on myself.
cos all these things made me realised alot of things.
and lessons learnt.
sometimes i just want to hate myself.
for always believing in what others said.
being too kind.
but i wont do that.
cos im a loving person.
and in order to love others
.i must first love myself.
and of cos GOD.
i thought everything went fine.
it all started so well.
but it all went wrong.
so much so that i have always treated some of u like best friends.
but what have i got in return?
got stabbed in the back.
i chose not to believe.
i chose not to hear or see.
but its reality.
stop faking.
and wake up ur idea.
how old already.
still want play this kind of game.
i aint no time for this.
i wish i cld be mean.
and played u back.
think is fun?
i think is childish.
but i will not keep in my heart.
everyone makes mistakes.
i will still love you.
(:
someone whom i respect alot told me this.
dont be double-minded!
dont be wavered by others.
i must stand for GOD.
in fact.
within this week.
2people have told me the same thing.
is this a sign from GOD?
this time round.
i will just do wad the things thats right.
will not hide again.
and i wanna be stronger.
whatever i do is for my own good.
and of cos people around me.
people may not understand why i do things this way that way.
but whatever i do is of good means.
some people will sure feel hurt at first.
and they will be mad at me.
but when they realise it.
then they will learn.
no need to thank me.
but thank GOD for everything.
(:
i really want to thank GOD for everything.
thank GOD for putting different people in my life.
ups and downs.
went through all kinds of emotions.
people like me.
people hate me.
people come.
people go.
theres one thing i always remember.
be it one sec.
one min.
one month.
one year.
we were once friends or still counting.
i thank GOD for you.
and i thank you for being my friend.
through all these.
we learnt from one another.
and we become stronger.
we go through problems and obstacles to make us stronger.
to become a better person.
not only benefits myself.
but people around me.
and also give glory to GOD.
(:
wad my mom said was right.
we never actually really lose a fren.
even if we may not see each other.
we may lose physical fren.
but we gain experiences from the friendship.
and sometimes we do think of them.
and who knows.
10yrs down the road.
we meet again.
and we already have the bond there.
we will still be as close as last time.
why?
bcos we have so much to catch up with one another.
and compare how silly we are the last time.
unless people choose to become strangers.
then i think tats a sad case.
seriously.
we have nothing to lose.
but we can gain something.
(:
primary sch we have best friends.
secondary sch we have best friends.
tertiary sch we have best friends.
we work, we have best friends.
we have friends whom we know outside.
and estimate.in one day we can actually know 1 new friend.
friendster is a good way to illustrate.
think.
in secondary sch u have new best friends,
and u seldom or never contact ur prinmary sch best friends.
in tertiary sch, u met new best friends and same thing.
seldom or never contact ur secondary sch friends.
and so on.
all are in ur friendster account.
most of them are there.
and we will only talk to the current best friends.
and we never talk to our last time friends.
and after many many years.
we meet each other on the way.
or at the mall.
then we start to talk back?
why?
bcos we are all in our comfort zone.
and we are happy with the friends we had.
but have you think?
that ur friends that u had one day suddenly.
had another group of best friends.
and leave u all alone there.
never even give u time to adapt.
thats when u feel lonely.
bored and miserable.
by the time.
u start to find new best friends again.
(:
its a cycle.
those friends who really go through thick n thin with you from the beginning till the end are rare.
so treasure the friendship.
(:
aye yes.
im longwinded.
but this is what i thought.
and it does happen.
and maybe it actually happen.
just that not aware.
you may not agree with me.
but fine.
thats how i feel.
i never ask or force anyone to feel the same way as i m.
many people never treasure many things in life.
take things for granted.
and feel regret and self-pity.
be it friends, family or whatsoever.
instead of feeling that way.
start doing something different.
and cherish everything that you have.
(:
life's short.
life's unpredictable.
you may not know whens the time you leaving.
or your loved ones leave.
and dont wait till things happen,
then u want do something.
by then,its too late.
so.
live it to the fullest.
instead of spending time complaining.
whining.
feel angry.
feel regret.
feel sad.
of cos you can.
but dont take too long.
stand up.
move on with ur life again.
(:(:
thanks for taking time to read.
:P
