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Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Y here i am. =) @ 6:53 AM
this year christmas is special.
i was able to celebrate with mom and sister.
friends.
and my cell group members.
even though i missed out the christmas service drama.

christmas eve.
it was a blue monday.
as u can read from my previous entry.
bfore mac bfast.
i was okay.
but after came back from bfast.
I EXPLODED!
and twice.
it was maddness.
i cried non-stop.
i was so pissed at the 2fucking dirty old men.
and i simply hate people "throwing money on me"
like as though im a beggar.
i dont need it.
so what if u are drunk.
drunk means can create a din in other people's shop.
i was so angry that i dont even know how to express it out.
and i cried.
i was walkin up n down the shop.
dont know what im doing.
finding things here n there.
but no idea what im looking for.
mom remained quiet.
and so do the workers.
they knew that something was not right.
just not right that they dont wish to disturb me.
and let me do what i want.

i smsed almost everyone in my contact lists.
and i think im mad.
so desperately looking for someone to talk with.
and i really want to thank Lorraine,Aizhen & Kaili.
thanks so much for being there when i needed someone so badly.
and later Huiyi also called me.
i slept for awhile.
and i felt much better.

ma sister came.
and asked us to go bugis eat sushi.
her treat!
so nice can.
and we went to had ice cream too.
she brighten up my day too.

she said i was so silly to cry.
but maybe i have to much emotions in me that i dont know how to express.
end up i cried it all out.

i felt so much better.
and i was happy.
then all of us returned back to shop.
ma mom came to me and told me a bad new.

her fren went to bleach our clothes in the washing machine.
and my favourite green dress.
that i wore only thrice.
which i wanna wear on christmas day is gone.
got black black spots on it.
i cried again.
real bad.
it was a christmas gift from uncle thomas.
and its something i love badly.
ma mom and sister dont know how to console me.
and left me in the room to cry.
i heard one of the workers said that.
today its a very bad day for me.
indeed it started out so bad.
and i simply cldnt accept it.
i heard the aunt who made "beautiful black spots"
on my dress said.
"you sure or not 70dollars?"
"wat brand?"

HELLO!!
its esprit and its 69.90dollars.
i have the receipt, u want take a look at it.
she remained silent.

what's done is done.
and worse thing is.
i went back to esprit to see if theres any green dress left.
no more stock.
sigh.

even if u give me back to money to buy new one.
or u bought the identical dress for me.
or watever.
the feelings and love for this dress will never be the same again.
whenever i look at the pictures of me wearing the dress.
i felt a pinch in my heart.
=(

after i cried.
i fell asleep.
all the way till 9pm.
oh ya.
bfore that.
while i was sleeping.
i even dreamt of someone, i dont know.
steal all my clothes away from me.
and i cried.
=X
when i woke up.
i told my mom.
she was laughing and she said i was silly.
she even go round telling her workers that i had this dream.
oh man.
i felt so paiseh.
hahah.
after a sleep.
i felt better.
and mom said 11pm.
go to her friend's shop to celebrate christmas.
mom bought 2 red wine.
and we had gift exchange too.
we eat drink and be merry.

my dearest girlfriend.
duchess.
came and joined us.
and at about 1am.
we left and went to meet out with other friends.
we drink and have fun!
and we were merried.
LOL.
we chill till about 7am in the morning.
and we took cab home.

slept for awhile.
uncle thomas came.
uncle, mom and myself went rochor centre to eat wanton noodle.
its really nice!
and went ntuc to get some groceries.
and headed back to shop.
mom and myself cooked the bee hoon.
i was wrapping the gift.
and was helping mom to do the stamp thingy.

at 3pm.
junwei came.
helped him wrap his gift.
and off we went to Mike's place.
CHRISTMAS PARTY.
we had games.
carolling.
eating.
watching dvds.
and we had so much fun!
the mudpie is so nice!
=)
and we celebrated huiyi's birthday.
she was shocked.
but all were happy.

we left at abt 8pm.
and took 147 with huiyi & sam.
reached shop.
i was so tired.
so i fell asleep.
till abt 1am.
i woke up.
see everyone asleep.
and i went to sleep again.
till 6plus am.
i woke up.
and thats why im here blogging.
=)

might head down to sentosa later.
alryte.
thats all for now.

im looking forward to 28th.
got cg appreciation nyte.
and new year eve countdown.
=)









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